There are a lot of opinions about how free will and destiny or fate can both exist, at least I struggled with this for years. No matter how I tried to get away from my destiny its never worked and I end up living out something my dreams have shown me anyway.

I didn't understand how it seemed my fate was somehow stronger than my free will until I realized that eons ago of my own free will I took a vow or something to live out that destiny when the lifetime came. This is that lifetime.

All of my current life has been nothing but about preparation for what is to come. Grandfather taught me things I'm not even aware I know until a situation arises and what I need to know comes to me instantly.

One main theme he stressed over and over was ethics. Ethics in the use of my knowledge and my abilities. I learned that all life is connected and to respect it and hold it sacred in all its forms.

He didn't teach me the colors of the four directions or anything like that, he taught me how to hone my abilities, and to direct my will with my words. He also taught me defensive magik, as he said I have to be able to protect myself and there will come a time when I will need all of what he taught me in order to fulfill my destiny.

Now for that billion dollar question: What is my destiny? Here's the kicker, I have no frakking clue. How rich is that? LOL Yes I can laugh at myself and I do so often.

Things I have seen myself do in these dreams leads me to the conclusion that I will do what's necessary to survive and help others do the same. I've seen myself shooting at people (and hitting them), blowing things up, sewing people back together and leading them.

Where am I leading them? Good question since I seem to live a somewhat nomadic life in my dreams. I can't stay in any given place for too long, at least that's how it looks to me,